Grief & Aching

Each day that I live apart from Molly is painful. She’s often the first thing I think of when I wake up. She often crosses my mind when I ask the kids where their brother or sister is. She is a part of my every day, that it often makes each day feel hours longer than they are. I ache to hold her, physically ache.

Yet, there are moments of hope. Moments when I see glimpses of how our stories, which will always be intertwined, will be able to walk side by side. Someone asks to see a photo of her or comments on my gold necklace with her name on it, asking if Molly is one of my kids. There are times when this doesn’t seem so painful, seems easily like you still have a visible place in my life, in my story.

Grief has been a difficult path to navigate as I walk between dealing with postpartum hormones, healing from a difficult pregnancy, mothering 4 young children, loving my wonderful husband and missing my baby girl fiercely.

Molly often feels forgotten as the bustle of life quickly sweeps us up into new rhythms and schedules. The first time we left the house for a weekend to go camping, I sobbed. It felt like we were leaving her behind, like a part of me was missing as we drove out of the driveway with our trailer in tow. These rhythms are a part of every season yet are harder to readily step into without someone that I love so dearly, so deeply.

Molly often feels forgotten as others try to balance between not knowing what to say, if they should mention her or even asking how life is going. I love the texts or message from friends and family that sometimes just say they were thinking about her, or saw a beautiful sunrise and it reminded them of our sweet Molly Mae.

A very special gift from another mom who
knows the grief and deep loss from losing a child

We’re about to launch ourselves into fall, school, schedules, back to work, will you continue to lift up our family in prayer? We are so thankful for the support, prayers and love from everyone as Molly was living in my tummy & her precious days with us. As our story is still being written, we want to continue to invite our community to walk with us in love and support. It has been one of the biggest ways we have seen Jesus. We want to continue having a place where we can share openly and honestly in hopes that it can help someone on a similar journey.

Much Love friends!